I haven’t written a blog for awhile.  I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, a lot of questioning, a lot of seeking about where my life is now and where I think God is leading me.

What I’ve found is that God’s promises are true- the more I seek, the more I find in Christ. My faith has grown exponentially over these last few months and it’s been in the still and quiet moments simply seeking, asking, and knocking at God’s door.

Some rambling thoughts on what I’m finding as I grow closer to God:

  • God doesn’t say a lot. He’s not a chatter box like I am. That is why it is crucial to have QUIET time with Him as often as you can. You need time to spend simply sitting with Him in the stillness of the moment – allowing space and time between you. You don’t even necessarily need to be thinking about anything but the joy of His presence. I need quiet time often because I want to be ready to hear Him when He does speak.
  • God likes to laugh. When He does speak, He often finds the humor in the tiniest moments of life. He laughs at me and my humanness in a way that makes me feel cherished rather than judged. I think of how I laugh when my four-year old does something so incredibly cute I simply burst out in joyful laughter. That is the same laughter I hear coming from God. It makes me “get over myself” rather quickly.
  • As you move closer to Christ, His light shines more brightly into the recesses of your heart, mind, soul, and strength. Frankly, I don’t like what He is revealing within me. Yuck. I had no idea that some of that junk was there. What’s strange and compelling is that there is so much love in the light of Christ, I don’t feel condemned because of the darkness in me. I just want it out of there so I can experience more light.
  • I’m finding that God often has to destroy a part of my humanness in order to rebuild it completely new. When you remodel a house, there are just some parts of the house that must be completely demolished in order to do the remodel job correctly. Fear is something He is working to completely destroy in me rather than just make it look prettier. Pride is another aspect He likes to demolish rather than just make us less prideful. It isn’t pleasant nor comfortable but it does bring you closer to God.
  • The main question God is asking is, “Do you trust me?” Our trust is the one essential ingredient to growth. He will not “God-handle” us into growth. He asks for our permission first. The question is, “Do we trust God enough to allow Him access to our heart, mind, soul, and strength – so He can finish the work He has begun in us?”
  • Lastly, the old spiritual disciplines of reading and meditating on His Word, fasting and prayer, journaling, silence and solitude, and focusing our thought life on Jesus are the best ways to growing in Christ. These are tried and true ways that haven’t changed over time and are still the best methods of approaching the throne room of God. This is the human effort needed in order for God to grow our faith. It really is easier than I thought. He isn’t asking for my perfection in doing these things, He asks for my passion in continuing to persevere when I fail. That makes it easier to dust myself off and keep on going.

“However, as it is written: “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him” —” 1 Corinthians 2:9