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  • I Am a Missionary…

    Dec 21st 2010

    By: terifrana

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    I am a missionary.  I AM a missionary.  I am a MISSIONARY.  I am a missionary…

    I’m learning to wrap my brain around the fact that I am now a missionary.  Truth is, I think Jesus calls us to be missionaries from the day He calls to us.  But, I’m now what the church in the US would call a missionary. I thought that was something only the really straight as an arrow, goody-toe shoes people did.

    You know, those people that dressed up on Sundays, never swore, did really, really well in school, and were kind, considerate, and seemed to always have the right answers for everything.  We would commission them as a church, pray for them, and send them along their merry way with a check.  They would head off to some third world place to live and write letters back about their exploits.

    Yeah – those people became missionaries.  NOT someone like me.

    I don’t like dressing up on Sundays, I do occasionally swear (my confession for the day), I did fairly well in school, and I try to kind and considerate, however, I often feel socially awkward.  (One thing I’ve always wondered is, do most people feel socially awkward or is it just me?)

    Right now, you could say that I’m a missionary to the missionaries.  I work for a missions organization who help mobilize thousands of participants out in the field each year.  We do mostly short term missions work, although we do have some career missionaries.

    In April, I will be heading out into the mission field for six months.  Okay, I need to say that again so it sinks in….

    In April, I am going to the missions field for SIX MONTHS.

    We are praying through it right now to figure out how, when, where, and who – but, a few brave families are going to head out from Gainesville in April, traveling and living in RVs as we tour across the US.  We want to connect with churches, ministry partners, and saints to work together to help heal the sick, love the lost, reach out to the broken, and allow Jesus to be seen, felt, and experienced.

    I’m not going to a third world country.  I’m not going in a traditional way to do traditional missionary things like build a school for orphans.  I’m being sent to my home – the US – to my backyard – to your neighborhood.  In an RV.

    Think hot dogs, lemonade, campfire smores, and Jesus.  Lots and lots of Jesus.

    “This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.”  1 John 4:9

    I am a missionary.  The first in my family.  The first of my friends.  The first I have actually really known close-up. As I look in the mirror and repeat this new identity to my reflection, I realize I look nothing like what I thought missionaries were supposed to look like.

    I AM a missionary.  I am a MISSIONARY.

    I need your help.  Please pray for me and the others who will be joining us. I need some cheerleaders who will cheer for me when doubt or discouragement set in.  I need folks who want to become even more involved and roll up their sleeves to help make this happen.  And I need help financially.  When I was working in the corporate world, I received a pay check.  On the missions field, you receive something called, “support” as your pay check.

    If I don’t raise the support needed – this trip doesn’t happen.  That’s how that works.

    Please let me know if you would like to help with prayers, cheerleading, rolling up the sleeves, or financial support.

    I’ll keep everyone updated as it progresses.  Who knows, maybe we’ll pull into your neighborhood?

    I am a missionary.  I AM a missionary.  Yes, I am a missionary to the United States.

    Adventure, Passionate Purpose, RV Journals, Reckless Faith, Transparently Human

  • How Many Chicks Does It Take?

    Dec 21st 2010

    By: terifrana

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    This is a blog I posted in my AIM blog on 12/10/10 but forgot to post here. 

    The saga continues with the problems we’ve been having. However, this story gets spiced with pinches of the miraculous.

    For example, we spent $197 on repairs and winterization of the RV. The next day, I received a $200 donation. There are more stories like this than I can relay in one post.

    But, I will tell you one more…

    We blew a fuse one night as we had the heaters running too hot. I was able to reset the breaker and restore the electricity. Except none of our electrical outlets came back. All three of us (me, my daughter, and my daughter’s best friend) spent all morning trying to figure out. We came to the conclusion we had fried the outlets and needed to get them replaced.

    The repair guy came this morning to fix them. He spent less than 2 minutes researching, went to the fuse box, and clicked one of the breakers over and back – HARD. Poof – all power was restored.

    We simply looked at each other in amazement. We had each done that several times to no avail. But, our night in shining armor comes in and saves us with one swish of his sword! We gave him 10 bucks and gleefully sent him on his way.

    Leah looked at us after he left and said, “SO, how many chicks does it take to flick a breaker?”

    These are the results of praying for radical faith: a ton of difficult situations all piled up on top of each other AND joy, glee, and laughter.

    In the past, all the issues we’ve been facing would have broken me. I would have tapped out on the mat. Yet, this time each problem seems to be bringing more and more hope – more and more joy – more and more peace. It is truly miraculous and only done by the transforming work that Jesus can do in us.

    This morning Ashley said it best in our prayer, “Dear Jesus, we thank you for the opportunity to grow together as a family even deeper than we were before.”

    We stand united.

    How many chicks does it take to glorify Jesus?


    Adventure, Joy, RV Journals, Transparently Human

  • Lie Unplugged #92

    Dec 20th 2010

    By: terifrana

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    Lie Unplugged: If you are doing life correctly, you should never have to ask for help from anyone.
    Truth Replaced: God created us to need each other.

    When the cold weather hit Georgia, it became apparent that living in the RV in the winter was not a good idea.  Between propane going out at the most inopportune times (like 2am), and our water hose freezing (leaving us with no running water), and cold air pouring in from everywhere (like to a tune of it being a balmy 53 degrees inside), we knew we needed plan B.  Then, I got sick, really sick (like laying in bed for five days kind of sick.)

    I was taught that if you needed help from anyone it was because you messed up.  I was taught you were a “mooch”.  But, I couldn’t deny that I needed help.

    Our church family stepped up and invited us to stay at the Lake House – where we meet for service.  There are six guys living there working at AIM, building the church, and waiting for God to give them clarity on next steps.  So, four girls and a dog moved in to the big bedroom downstairs with the other six guys (and often other visitors) stay upstairs.

    The first thing we discovered is in our bathroom was a claw-foot tub.  OOO LA LA!

    The next thing we discovered was community.  Friends depending on each other, serving each other, building each other up, laughing together, praying together, and rejoicing together.  At first, I felt all those old lies haunting me, “You screwed up again and now you have to rely on others to help you.”

    But, this time there was a new voice in there saying, “Praise God for these people who act a lot like Jesus!”  “Praise God we have a warm place to stay filled with laughter and joy!”  God showed me just how important community is especially while you are taking steps of radical faith.  When I spend my energy on making sure I don’t need anyone, I miss out on more than I’m willing to miss out on ever again.

    We have now found plan B and will be moving into a duplex in the next week.  We leave the Lake House refreshed, rejuvenated, and rekindled!

    God created us to need each other.  And it is good….

    “The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone…” Genesis 2:18a

    Adventure, RV Journals, Transparently Human

  • Seeds of Radical Faith

    Dec 6th 2010

    By: terifrana

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    I did pray for radical faith.  I asked God to transform me into someone who cares infinitely more about what others think of Jesus than what they think of me.  I gave God permission to use my life in any way He decides to use it.

    (Technically, He’s God and all, so He already has that right.  But from what I read about Him, He is looking for willing participants not mindless robots.)

    That was Saturday.  Nothing special happened.  I spent the weekend caring for my youngest daughter who has been carrying a fever for a couple days.  All and all, the weekend was pretty much a bust.

    This morning I woke up to find we have no running water.  This means either our water line if frozen or something worse.  Either way, we’re looking to spend money we don’t have to fix it.  Not good.

    We spent several hundred dollars in repairs on the way down here.  In the two months we’ve been here, we’re run out of propane twice which left us without heat, our water heater broke, our sewer has backed up several times, and the “service engine soon” light came on.  I’m sure the seals on the windows are gone too because there is cold air pouring through all the windows.  These are the risks of living in an RV in the winter.

    Something I’ve noticed as God has been transforming my faith – instead of the overwhelming fear, frustration, and sense of burden I used to feel when these kinds of things happened – I find myself looking for the hope.  I’m not saying I didn’t have that sinking feeling when I turned on the faucet and no water came out.  But, I will say that my second response was to pray and ask God for help.  My third response was to begin looking for the hope.

    I know nothing happens that God hasn’t already foreseen.  So, it would stand to reason that He has already provided a way not only to cope, but to find joy.  I remembered we just filled out 3 gallon water jug last night.  AH!  God provided water for us before we even had to ask!

    I’m getting ready to go outside and check the damage.  (Deep breath…)  Do I believe God will provide all our needs?  Do I believe God even cares about a frozen water hose?  Do I believe God cares even more about transforming my heart into radical faith?

    If those three things are true, then I have nothing to fear because God is God and I am His beloved.  Whatever I find is in His hands.

    I wonder if these are the seeds which grow into radical faith?

    “I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.”  Ephesians 3:16-17a

    Adventure, Comfort, RV Journals

  • Crickets and Radical Faith

    Dec 4th 2010

    By: terifrana

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    I’ve been praying for ten years for God to give me more of Him. I want to hear Him and know His will. I want more courage to respond to His will. I want the reality of Jesus in me to be evident to those around me. I ask for more and more and more…

    I want radical faith – like that of Paul, Moses, Abraham, Peter. Faith like we see in the lives of Corrie Ten Boom, George Muller, Saint Teresa of Avila, and Horatio Spafford.  I want that.

    God has been faithful to respond to my prayers. Today I have much more faith, am hearing more clearly from Him, experience less fear, and have more peace than I knew was possible.

    This morning I was praying about the little girl with the hole in her throat. I was thinking about all the ways God has used her story to soften my heart and heighten my awareness of the need for radical faith. I asked God to use my life to help those like her who are suffering. Again, I prayed for radical faith.

    “Why do you want radical faith?” God asked.

    (Silence with a few crickets chirping in the background…)

    God exposed me.  He exposed ugliness I didn’t even realize was there.  Instantly, I knew the reasons why I have been ask for radical faith – in order of importance to me:

    1. So people will like me.

    2. So I can help people who are suffering (emphasis on “I”).

    3. For the glory of Jesus.

    In one fell swoop, God revealed I have all the right intentions with the wrong motivations.

    The next logical thing would be to ask God to transform my heart and destroy the wrong motivations.

    (Crickets chirping…)

    I know what it has taken for God to grow my faith over the last ten years; pain, suffering, and lots and lots of waiting. It was really hard.  There has also been incredible peace, mounds of joy, and an ocean of love.  Now, I’m considering giving permission to God to destroy all that is prideful and self-reliant in me. To completely and utterly die to self with nothing left for Teri to cling to except Jesus. I’m asking Him to consume my life and make it His.

    “It is no longer I who lives but Christ in me….” (Galatians 2:20) And I’m pretty darn sure that’s gonna hurt.

    I’m also sure there will be lots of miraculous glory too.

    Is this really what I want? Or do I really just want to stop here in a somewhat comfort zone of faith? A zone that I still have a little control over. Where I can still claim (in my head at least) a little glory for myself. ‘Oh Teri, you are such a Godly woman!” ‘Yes, yes, thank you…and Praise God!”

    Jesus had a little different answer when someone tried to call Him “Good teacher”.

    “Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone.  Mark 10:18

    (Crickets again…)

    I sense this is my moment of decision for how the rest of my life plays out. This is the question which needs to be addressed in my heart before God will entrust radical faith to me. I can go no further in my spiritual walk until I answer these questions:

    Do I want to give all the glory to Jesus?  And am I willing to pay the price?

    People of radical faith care much more about what others think of Jesus than anything else.

    Am I still willing to ask for radical faith?   Are you willing?

    (Crickets…)

    Lord, I’m asking you to give us the courage to answer that question.  I ask that you help us not just walk away from it, but to actually battle within ourselves to answer it.  Are we willing to receive radical faith, regardless what it costs us personally, SO THAT Jesus can be glorified in radical ways?

    (Peaceful silence…)

    I keep seeing is the image of the little girl with the hole in her throat.

    I think my answer is going to be yes…

    Adventure, Exploring Deep, Passionate Purpose, Reckless Faith, Transparently Human

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